jus take me away, somewhere far far away.
ihy.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
忽然觉得我可以死掉，我受不了
that day i got flu&fever, then i go thought that i got H1N1, initially i was very scared.
but after thinking and thinking, i really hope i got H1N1 and jus dies off like that.
so i wont create so much trouble for her, the person she abhor and the person who hurt her so much could jus disappear. how good uh.
if i could die,i could leave this fking earth, i could leave all my sorrows behind.
if only i have the courage and determination.
cry? maybe i can cry to blind. my tears worth nothing at all.
i can frown whenever i wan. my smile doesnt worth anything too.
started to hate myself so much. my naiveness, my stupidity. my everything!
laughing at myslf too.
what am i now???????????
to her, im cheap and bitch.
i also dunno why i am here typing with tears flowing down........
haha maybe too emotional.......haha.........
a millions of words inside my heart, all turn into silence in one second
dun ask me why, cos theres alot of question i aLSO wanna ask.
dun talk to me.
from now onwards, i wont put any full trust and hope and love and care to any friends that i make in future.
if this time, i really completely lose this friends.
she will be the first and last best friend i make.
i , chen lin, swear.
i've seen the cruelness of this world. to be realistic,
i wont make any true friend again.
though wearing a mask infront pple is very tiring, but at the very least, i could protect myself.
now, my smile my frown my tears my joy. nobody can see through.
&nobody would wanna know.
only people in the world who knows everything, is myself. yes myself.
the one who will never betrays me is myself.
-end-
imsodead.
but after thinking and thinking, i really hope i got H1N1 and jus dies off like that.
so i wont create so much trouble for her, the person she abhor and the person who hurt her so much could jus disappear. how good uh.
if i could die,i could leave this fking earth, i could leave all my sorrows behind.
if only i have the courage and determination.
cry? maybe i can cry to blind. my tears worth nothing at all.
i can frown whenever i wan. my smile doesnt worth anything too.
started to hate myself so much. my naiveness, my stupidity. my everything!
laughing at myslf too.
what am i now???????????
to her, im cheap and bitch.
i also dunno why i am here typing with tears flowing down........
haha maybe too emotional.......haha.........
a millions of words inside my heart, all turn into silence in one second
dun ask me why, cos theres alot of question i aLSO wanna ask.
dun talk to me.
from now onwards, i wont put any full trust and hope and love and care to any friends that i make in future.
if this time, i really completely lose this friends.
she will be the first and last best friend i make.
i , chen lin, swear.
i've seen the cruelness of this world. to be realistic,
i wont make any true friend again.
though wearing a mask infront pple is very tiring, but at the very least, i could protect myself.
now, my smile my frown my tears my joy. nobody can see through.
&nobody would wanna know.
only people in the world who knows everything, is myself. yes myself.
the one who will never betrays me is myself.
-end-
imsodead.
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