Problems after problems.

I know it's hard for us all this while to fight this endless war alone. This kind of situation, sad to say that we really cant help. We're helpless and hopeless and useless. Slb is going to mad soon i think. Who's gonna answer those questions in my head. And who's going to solve all our problem, none.All we have is each other and no one else. Seriously I don't know what to do to comfort her or make her better.When I'm upset I still can type it down here, and vent my anger what about her? Who can she turn to when she needs help and a listening ear. Sorry we're very useless, we choose to pretend that we don't know anything. Why we land ourselves into this plight? That's a good question ya? I wish i could buried my head into the ground and im out of the world. See nothing hear nothing. Once ago, I've a friend who i will tell all my problem to, every single thing in my life, I'll tell her. Now she's gone, I choose to keep all the things to myself because I dont feel the same when i told the other friends, it's meaningless. Now, i only can depend on myself. No matter how tough life's gonna be, move on and I'll see better future isnt it? Talk easy but hard to do so, cos my heart still hurts.I miss the past, I miss all our heart to heart session, i miss those hours and hours of phone call, i miss those endless jokes, i miss our party world session, i miss every moment we're together. Alot of people says that I'm very fortunate, indeed I am. Perhaps, I'm just taking everything for granted and not grateful enough. I'm s/e/l/f/i/s/h.