Today I went to Dan house find her, slack awhile then headed to amiralty meet monkey and his friends, go there for free lunch and money only, He fking asked us out then at his friend house only concentrate in gambling, HAHA in the end lose alot money. Orh bee! then nevermind, we took the money he gave us to a "big feast", KFC & ice cream.Zzz. Train back to yishun, slacked at 755 around 6pm. Chatting,camwhoring,laughing all the way till her lappy bo battery. Then had a heart to heart chatting with each other.I poured all my sorrows and unhappiness to her,felt quite relieved after that but at the same time, while telling her all my relationship stuff, she also thinks that I'm sucha failure. :( I've no dignity already. Even I was looking down on myself, let alone the rest. & What she told me is quite true. Everyone have some ugly past and experience, thats the process of growing. Everyone must have such a lesson in their life, so that next time we won't make any silly decision. Okay, I'm stupid enough to believe those beautiful promises or sentence said by you.Though we didnt end, but I can feel that we're at our wits end already.It seems like all the things that I've done for you is going to the drain. :( I know, things turn out to be like this is all I deserve it. I shouldnt even start this torment in the first place right? But this is what love is, isnt it. No gain no pain. I'n in great pain already, but why still no gain anything.Love is really blind.The more u love one person, the more hurt you will get at the end of the day, no matter how happy your were in the past. Memories are just past tense. Thats the most cruel part of love. Accept it and move on.
我曾经以为爱上你不会错你如今变的让我没有把握曾经的承诺对与错回过头又算是什么这逝去的爱如何能复活我虽然难过爱让我懦弱付出的太多无法解脱这心痛你能明白吗我应该如何才不会是这结果我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好孤独爱的没有退路我好无助抹不去痛楚忍不住的哭这是你给我的礼物我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好糊涂爱的不能醒悟你好残酷我看着来路你并不在乎也许吧我无所谓一个人去漫步。