Heart restarted.

I thought I would break down immediately, but i didn't.Was trying so hard to hold back my tears. But its still flowing down like a river, i cant control it. After the singing session,I didnt felt any better, instead that feeling worsen. I hate you, seriously.Now, everything goes back to the normal, just like we've never known each other. Everything went back to the day before 23feb 2009. We're strangers from now. We've become two parallel lines, never intersect anymore.Thrown away everything that belongs to you and me, every single thing. But still, I can't throw away my heart. I cant throw away our memories. I can delete every picture that we've taken and every song that we've listened, but the images still appearing in my mind.This feeling really sucks. I feel like strangling myself to stop missing you.Slap me please so that i can wake up from this nightmare. Really have to thanks na,shan and dan, they've been there for me when i need them. Although they're not good in comforting people, but seriously I appreciate everything. In the end, after walking through so many circles, 我还是回到你们的怀抱里。Sorry, I'm not a good friend.Sorry, to let your see me in this state again.I know I'm always a failure in this case.This time, I really learnt my lesson, Don't worry. If not for you all, I don't know what I would become now. Or I would be hiding somewhere crying in a corner. I just need time now, to recover, to completely come out from that circle,to forget him, to forget everything that he had put me through all this while.I'm exhausted though.