Slap me please.

Today is not my day. I'm doomed. I thought today i'm working morning shift so i wake up at 9am and prepared. Then reached iluma at 11am, they stunned and look at me. I was damn embarrased can! How i wish i can dig a hole and hide myself inside like an ostrich. It was printed a big "A" on the timetable means i was expect to reach 2hours later. "A" and "M" got a super big difference, why the hell could i see wrongly? Nevermind, so i bought a drink at The Coffee Bean nearby, WTF cost me $4. then I sat down be a loner for whole 2 hours. Decided to listen to the music to kill time, The stupid earpiece is giving me the same problem again. Damn it. God save me T.T 1pm comes very fast, so i go back to work. I punch the card at the wrong side again. They corrected me last month then this month im commiting the same mistake. and and and I was feeling super unwell & giddy. Double unhappiness! Managed to sustain myself all the way till 4pm for lunch, after that I was better.
Sometime i feel like a slave to them. Of course lar, they got someone to order around, why not. especially to those part timers like me. " Chenlin u can mop the floor liao" "You don't want to sweep the floor arh?" (hinting me to go sweep lor) "Chenlin 去丢垃圾" "Iron the clothes" "Don't stand there leh" "Can go change the water liao" I have to go all the way down to the ground floor to dump the big rubbish bag. Do you know how smelly that place is, I've to hold my breathe till i was back in the lift. Okay nevermind I can still tolerate, who ask me is their subordinate. I have to be very tolerance de, Just for the sake of that pathetic $5/hr. I'm very tired already today,when i wanna tap my card at the bugis station. You know what. MY EZLINK CARD WAS LOST again. Slap myself! I'm not upsetting for the lost of the card.Is because I've just top up $40 this morning! Last year I've lost for 4 or 5 times already. This is only February, and this damn history repeats again. This time I'm not going to make a new one since I'm paying adult fare already. But my mood was still very down, i hate myself lar.! Why am I so SUEY today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My Ang bao money was running low already.Spent300bucks these 2days.
Slap myself 2x! Mum was back to china today, & she din give us a penny. Triple unhappiness!
How am i going to survive till she's back, which is next friday -.- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.